Control of my heart 9-28-22

 Control of my heart

Control is a battle 

Where does your power end and another’s begin?

Control is protection 

How do you keep from being let down?

Control is not knowing

What does the future hold?

Control is damaging 

Who do you hurt by harsh words or closed hearts?

Control is a mirage

The picture is pretty but don’t look inside.

Control is how I’ve protected me.

I don’t know how to break through that shield of protection without getting cut to pieces.

My heart is big and damaged. 

It sees love and doesn’t see its worth .

My heart is weak and needs strength.

The strength of truth and understanding heal me.

My heart is healing, with patience I will lose the need for control.

Thoughts after writing this…

With these words I wonder how do I move forward.  Two steps forward three steps back, and the tears make me feel lost/weak.  Am I worth others?  Am I important?  How do I recognize my worth all the time?