Poems by Bonnie

 Calm I feel the calm of a Sunday. I see the light shining on the land. I know the peace  of my foundation. My story has many layers.   It is strengthened by hills and mountains. It is being written as I go. The  world will find me tomorrow. The challenges will come. The calm will return, thoughts will be clear, direction will be found, and my purpose will be achieved.

 Voices 7-22-22 Strong, solid, supportive, and funny. These voices mean more than they were supposed to. Warm, understanding, and seeking. These voices calm more than they were supposed to. Change increases and joy begins increasing. The voice is now a part of me more than I deserve or it ever was supposed to. I miss that voice when I don’t hear it. I look for the sweet touch of the person with that voice. I will never regret that voice.

 Safe I never knew anything but fear then you came near, I always saw sorrow the you showed me joy. I thought I wasn't enough then you held me in my weakness. I can't explain us but I see the stars shining above. I can't tell you enough "I'm safe with you."    I'm safe, I'm safe, I'm safe.

 One moment  In one moment things can change… I can be weak, then strong. I can be fearful and determined. I can be stressed and hopeful. I can be me. I can learn that I’m worth it. I can show the world, I’m ready. I can become amazing. I can be me. I can find my way alone. I can trust others with my heart. I can be an amazing mom. I can be me. I can speak my truth. I can share my joy. I can dream of my future. I can be me. I can allow others to be themselves. I can allow myself to be imperfect. I can cry without shame. I can be me. I can sit in the moment. I can grow as a person. I can face my emotions. I can be me. I can see the journey ahead. I can weather each turn along the way. I can survive everything ahead. I can be me. I AM ME!

 Today  Today I see the past, present, and future. I see a woman who isn’t unsure. She is full of fight and courage. I am aware of my past. I’m not perfect, I’m me. I am better than who I was. I am healing! I am aware of my present challenges. I know what is expected. I’ll reach the goal of personal happiness. I am improving! I am aware of my future. I know it will take sacrifice. I’ll make it happen, soon. I am goal reaching!

 Here I sit and watch the sun Shine through my window. The birds sing,and the wind blows. The world stopped spinning for one moment. The expectations of me are on hold. The simple feeling of peace is amazing. The world stopped spinning for one moment. The day is beginning and I’m okay. I survived yesterday, I didn’t think I would. Tre world is spinning again. I don’t know where my journey is going, but it will be awesome. I can’t predict the future or your response to me. The world is spinning again. This adventure is amazing and I’m prepared to show you why. The person I was yesterday is gone, meet the improved me. The world is spinning again. I am watching it spin in my direction! Watch out because I’m unstoppable and amazing.

 Untitled work…. 7-16-22 The world is black and white, I thought so. The problems were easy,I thought so. The emotions were hidden, I thought so. The day I met you, things changed. I saw the beautiful rainbows in the world. I saw problems as personal challenges. The emotions couldn’t be hidden. The day I met you things changed. I know I am strong, and safe. I  believe you see who I am, not my mask. I see your beautiful soul and feel your tender touch. The day I met you things changed

 Silence 7-18-22 Crickets, cool breeze, and the darkness encompass me. Sounds awaken in my soul. Movement becomes purposeful. This moment exists and feels fleeting. The uncertainty of the future glooming. Dreaming of my next blooming. Listening to my thoughts, pure at this moment. No sorrow can sit as I love this minute. Smiles aren’t forced or required. The wind brings in self doubt. Feelings of doing without. Turning about and about. Internal struggle for peace is constant. External search for acceptance is blatant. I stand in the middle balancing this teeter totter. Help….

 Untitled 7-19-22 Untitled  Joy, stress, joy, stress I’m so lost and found. Happy, sad, happy, sad. I’m overwhelmed I feel every emotion, afraid to really release them. I see people watching and judging me. I see the goals I have for today, and know I will not meet every goal. I reach out hoping to be saved. I struggle to feel because feeling makes things real. I feel inferior and unimportant to others. I’m so overwhelmed and yet I know it’s part of the journey. I see the way out even though I’m struggling to see myself. I want to be a stronger, clearer, and more open self,

 Delay 7-20-22 Time flies and I get lost. I see the day fly and tasks not done Sitting as I watch my dreams come true. I am becoming the woman standing in the sun. I lift up my spirits to see you soar. I praise our success with a loud roar. This delay is a part of my amazing journey, let’s succeed together!